Sunday, 05 July 2009
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July 5th, 1997
On this day 12 years ago, I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. It was a mistake that would cost me my highschool days, most of my teenage years and the experience of being a young lady growing into a woman. It was a mistake that took my innocence, made me grow up in a short amount of time and something that I will never forget or forgive.
It was the day that I began to be the girlfriend of the man who raped me.
I remember the day like it was yesterday. We were standing beside his truck at my parent's campsite saying goodbye. He was "the older guy" and he was interested in me. On this particular night, he leaned down and he kissed me and asked me to be his girlfriend. I was of course more than happy to say yes. We spent 1 of the best years together, then I moved in with him and everything changed. Everything went from happily ever after to the worst 3 years of my life. I was a prisoner in my own home. I was transformed from the happy go lucky 15 year old to a housewife without a ring. I was, quite literally, his bitch.
I spent 3 more years with this man. I spent my days cleaning, doing laundry and towards the end, plotting my escape. I was only allowed to go to school, to pay bills and a couple times a month to go to my parent's house. I was talked down to, I was sexually abused, physically abused and hurt weekly. Some days would be better than others, some days would be worse. I could tell by his eyes when he woke up in the morning what my day was going to be like. Whenever we went out together, I would have to "put on my happy face" and show everyone how good he was to me.
It was memorial day weekend when I told him it was over. I left him while he was working. I took one of my friends with me and we threw all my clothes in garbage bags and took off. I left him a note.
My Love,
I'm not going to tell you I'm sorry for this. I'm not going to tell you that I regret the past four years either. I'm only going to simply say this. I'm taking back my freedom and my heart and I'm moving on with it. I suggest you do the same. Do not try to contact me, do not try to follow me. I'm leaving never to come back, and I've found someone else. I will say that I'll miss the person you used to be.-Kelby.
He did try to get me back, he did follow me and tell me he would change. I never went back, I never looked back either. I moved on. And I'm oh so glad I did.
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Comments (246)
"And I'm oh so glad I did." --me too, me too.
i was in an abusive relationship before...I'm so glad I got away too. It was the best thing for me. Good for you too.
@theacematt2 - @NoPenniesHere - Thank you =)
It never ceases to amaze me how strong you can be when you put your mind to it. I'm glad you left that situation because it only would have gotten worse. I hope he got help, and I hope you did as well. Stay strong and know that you've got people rooting for you =)
Good for you. You did the right thing. I'm just glad he didn't try to be violent to you after you left, or something like that.
@lizheartshakespeare - thank you =)
@SerenaDante - me too. He was pretty scared of my boyfriend at the time, so he kept his distance. I did have to get my phone number changed. It's funny, he'd beat on women, but he'd clam up and act like a pussy around men. Thanks for the rec =)
@XDaemonessX - no problem =D
I am so very happy you got out of this relation-shit.
@waking_up_older - relation-shit. I never thought of that word! That's a perfect description of it.
You are an amazingly strong person to get yourself out of that situation instead of being the victim.
I am so happy you had the stregth to leave <3
I applaud your strength to move on from him. I know of so many women who stay with their abuser for ever and blame themselves for the pain inflicted upon them.
Gosh, I'm so glad you did too!
@waking_up_older - I like your play on words. (x
And I'm so glad you did too.
Wow, I'm glad you had the courage to stay away from him and leave!
Some girls would go back with the promise of change.xo
Wow, I am glad you got the strength to leave.
Being able to find the strength to leave is amazing. Good for you.
(((Hugs))) so proud of you =)
I am so glad you got away!
i'm glad you had the courage and the boldness to leave :)
If I was in an elevator with my worst enemy, this guy, and a gun with two bullets.. I'm beating the shit out of my worst enemy and shooting this guy twice.
I'm really glad you left, too. You sound like a very strong person.
that is an amazing story. it took inner strength & guts to do what you did. I'm so glad you escaped the misery and feeling of being a prisoner.
I am so glad you had the strength in you to leave him and never look back. Such men are disgusting.
Thank you for sharing. That took a lot of strength both to live through and to tell, and I hope you give yourself enough credit for being able to walk away.
@alwaysjessielove - Thank you =)
@KassieintheSkywithDiamonds - It's sad how many women actually do stay with their abusers. Thank you =)
@AlterEgo909 - @fallenxangel64 - @Blessings_of_Motherhood - @zeeohee - @AnGeLmArYy21 - @storyslut - @noree_n - @soobee72 - Thank you =)
@JessxMaxine - I had heard enough promise of change to know better. Thank you =)
@Auxesis - haha!! That's awesome!
@knockout_tara - It was an awful feeling. Thank you =)
@aiinos - Such men are not really 'men' at all. Thank you =)
@aililia - It taught me to never take kindness for granted, and never settle for less than what I truly deserve.